I know.

[ despite the initial terror of finding herself awake while saber wasn't, a small part of her hadn't given up hope that somehow, he would help her. and help her she did...at the cost of two lives. that will weigh on her shoulders forever, along with the kind college student that had given ayaka their body, the mage couple that ripped each other apart, and god knows how many others.

hwylryn had asked her if she valued one life above another when asked about andrew and siffrin. in that moment, she had said that she couldn't. but with saber next to him, responsible for a crime that he committed to save her life, she can't help but feel that her answer would have changed if the person in question had been him. ]

I'm mad that you set the library on fire and put everyone else in danger. That was so stupid of you that I can't even begin to describe it.

[ she huffs out a sigh through her nose, looking down at their hands. ]

But I'm going to help you carry the weight of Siffrin and Siobhan's deaths. I don't care if you tell me that it's nothing for you. I'm... not taking no for an answer, so don't even try.

[ the same way that saber didn't give up on her earlier, she won't let him carry everything on his own. ]