[ with one hand in his, she's forced to look at him. she glances to the side, like the instincts of a frightened animal, but her gaze always returns to his own, as fiery as the color of his eyes.
upon hearing him say that siobhan's blood is not on her hands, she feels a scream lodge itself in her throat, which she swallows down like a stone. ayaka glances down to her healing hand, where she can still see smudged blood that she's not certain of whether or not it belongs to her. ]
Of course it's my fault. Saber, I-- I stabbed her! I could've thrown the knife, I could've run away with it, I could've... I could've... I don't know! I could've done something else! Anything else!
[ it all went so fast, that to ayaka it's all a blur. who got the knife to drop, who picked up, who was above who... it doesn't matter to her. all she remembers is that horrible feeling of metal sinking into flesh and the warm blood on her hands. ]
You should just let me bear this. If you involve yourself too much, they might... they might vote for you.
[ and if saber dies for her sake... she wouldn't be able to handle something like that. ]
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upon hearing him say that siobhan's blood is not on her hands, she feels a scream lodge itself in her throat, which she swallows down like a stone. ayaka glances down to her healing hand, where she can still see smudged blood that she's not certain of whether or not it belongs to her. ]
Of course it's my fault. Saber, I-- I stabbed her! I could've thrown the knife, I could've run away with it, I could've... I could've... I don't know! I could've done something else! Anything else!
[ it all went so fast, that to ayaka it's all a blur. who got the knife to drop, who picked up, who was above who... it doesn't matter to her. all she remembers is that horrible feeling of metal sinking into flesh and the warm blood on her hands. ]
You should just let me bear this. If you involve yourself too much, they might... they might vote for you.
[ and if saber dies for her sake... she wouldn't be able to handle something like that. ]