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[ He's not sure what, precisely, she's apologizing for. Whether she knows what he did – taking matters into his own hands to ensure that, when it came down to it, no harm came to her. The fact that she's looking at him, and not over his shoulder for the little girl that's not actually there, is a good sign as any, but he can't be sure. And asking right now doesn't seem like it'd be particularly helpful to getting her to calm down somewhat.
He's helpful in starting a fight, or forcing his way through things like a wild animal. In cases like these, for as talented and strong as he is, he doesn't know what to do. It's almost like the reality check he had been given after fighting with the King of Heroes, but he doesn't even have the wherewithal to let himself burn out of magical energy and fade away.
Wordlessly, he stands up to move out of the powder room for not even a minute, returning to her on the floor with the items he got between the two weeks, the analgesic vial and the spray he had received before they went to the library. ]
Are you hurt anywhere?
[ His tone is quiet and gentle, which seems like a mismatch from the fire in his eyes that doesn't seem to go away. ]
[ He's not sure what, precisely, she's apologizing for. Whether she knows what he did – taking matters into his own hands to ensure that, when it came down to it, no harm came to her. The fact that she's looking at him, and not over his shoulder for the little girl that's not actually there, is a good sign as any, but he can't be sure. And asking right now doesn't seem like it'd be particularly helpful to getting her to calm down somewhat.
He's helpful in starting a fight, or forcing his way through things like a wild animal. In cases like these, for as talented and strong as he is, he doesn't know what to do. It's almost like the reality check he had been given after fighting with the King of Heroes, but he doesn't even have the wherewithal to let himself burn out of magical energy and fade away.
Wordlessly, he stands up to move out of the powder room for not even a minute, returning to her on the floor with the items he got between the two weeks, the analgesic vial and the spray he had received before they went to the library. ]
Are you hurt anywhere?
[ His tone is quiet and gentle, which seems like a mismatch from the fire in his eyes that doesn't seem to go away. ]
[ as richard leaves, ayaka's sight doesn't follow him. maybe it'd be better to say that she isn't looking at him, but simply forward.
in his absence, however quick it is, she sees it. the figure, much smaller than her, staring back at her. with her hood pulled down, she can see it now. the transparent blonde hair and pointed ears sticking out, with blue eyes staring back at her. when saber's back, her face is in her hands. she doesn't want to see her. she doesn't want to see him. she doesn't want to see anyone.
his question sounds distant, as if he were talking from hundreds of meters away. with a shuddering breath, she tries to assess the damage and comes up with nothing but static. with a shuddering breath, she tries to give whatever information comes to her head. ]
I-I tripped. My hands... I think my ankle... oh god, Saber what did I do?
[ another person dead because of her. once again, her hands are marred in the blood of others, like the monster that she is. ]
in his absence, however quick it is, she sees it. the figure, much smaller than her, staring back at her. with her hood pulled down, she can see it now. the transparent blonde hair and pointed ears sticking out, with blue eyes staring back at her. when saber's back, her face is in her hands. she doesn't want to see her. she doesn't want to see him. she doesn't want to see anyone.
his question sounds distant, as if he were talking from hundreds of meters away. with a shuddering breath, she tries to assess the damage and comes up with nothing but static. with a shuddering breath, she tries to give whatever information comes to her head. ]
I-I tripped. My hands... I think my ankle... oh god, Saber what did I do?
[ another person dead because of her. once again, her hands are marred in the blood of others, like the monster that she is. ]
[ Richard pauses, undoing the restraints on his gauntlets so he can pull them and the gloves off. He gently takes one of her hands into his own, figuring out how to use the bottle before spraying it onto her palm. ]
You've done nothing wrong, Ayaka. This is not your fault.
[ He should have done something sooner to act, to make it so she was never put in this situation in the first place. He knows that he failed, in that sense, but it doesn't mean he won't keep trying for her sake.
He watches the spray work on stitching the scrapes on her palm back together, his eyes occasionally flitting up to hers in case they meet. ]
Siobhan Roy's blood is not on your hands.
[ It's an addition to the countless on his, either by his hand or in his name, but it's one worth taking. ]
You've done nothing wrong, Ayaka. This is not your fault.
[ He should have done something sooner to act, to make it so she was never put in this situation in the first place. He knows that he failed, in that sense, but it doesn't mean he won't keep trying for her sake.
He watches the spray work on stitching the scrapes on her palm back together, his eyes occasionally flitting up to hers in case they meet. ]
Siobhan Roy's blood is not on your hands.
[ It's an addition to the countless on his, either by his hand or in his name, but it's one worth taking. ]
[ with one hand in his, she's forced to look at him. she glances to the side, like the instincts of a frightened animal, but her gaze always returns to his own, as fiery as the color of his eyes.
upon hearing him say that siobhan's blood is not on her hands, she feels a scream lodge itself in her throat, which she swallows down like a stone. ayaka glances down to her healing hand, where she can still see smudged blood that she's not certain of whether or not it belongs to her. ]
Of course it's my fault. Saber, I-- I stabbed her! I could've thrown the knife, I could've run away with it, I could've... I could've... I don't know! I could've done something else! Anything else!
[ it all went so fast, that to ayaka it's all a blur. who got the knife to drop, who picked up, who was above who... it doesn't matter to her. all she remembers is that horrible feeling of metal sinking into flesh and the warm blood on her hands. ]
You should just let me bear this. If you involve yourself too much, they might... they might vote for you.
[ and if saber dies for her sake... she wouldn't be able to handle something like that. ]
upon hearing him say that siobhan's blood is not on her hands, she feels a scream lodge itself in her throat, which she swallows down like a stone. ayaka glances down to her healing hand, where she can still see smudged blood that she's not certain of whether or not it belongs to her. ]
Of course it's my fault. Saber, I-- I stabbed her! I could've thrown the knife, I could've run away with it, I could've... I could've... I don't know! I could've done something else! Anything else!
[ it all went so fast, that to ayaka it's all a blur. who got the knife to drop, who picked up, who was above who... it doesn't matter to her. all she remembers is that horrible feeling of metal sinking into flesh and the warm blood on her hands. ]
You should just let me bear this. If you involve yourself too much, they might... they might vote for you.
[ and if saber dies for her sake... she wouldn't be able to handle something like that. ]
She was trying to kill you. I'm not sure any sort of delay tactics would've held for long.
[ The barricades, the intentional slowdowns – it may have been just so anyone who happened to wake up took their time before encountering the two of them, but given that it was Ayaka and not anyone else, it feels a little targeted specifically to them.
He's said it once, he'll say it again. Any enemy of hers is an enemy of his, and he won't hesitate to stand in the way. ]
Sorry, that's just one thing I cannot do. I'll be behind you all the way. We're a team, right?
[ He runs the pad of this thumb over her palm, catching some of the smudge and wiping it away. ]
[ The barricades, the intentional slowdowns – it may have been just so anyone who happened to wake up took their time before encountering the two of them, but given that it was Ayaka and not anyone else, it feels a little targeted specifically to them.
He's said it once, he'll say it again. Any enemy of hers is an enemy of his, and he won't hesitate to stand in the way. ]
Sorry, that's just one thing I cannot do. I'll be behind you all the way. We're a team, right?
[ He runs the pad of this thumb over her palm, catching some of the smudge and wiping it away. ]
And I'm not going to be able to convince you otherwise, right?
[ with the back of her other hand, she brushes the tears that were building up in the corners of her eyes. with a pain in her heart, she remembers what she told siobhan during their first argument. she had called saber headstrong, impulsive, and unknowing of fear.
she forgot stubborn.
the warmth of her hand in his is welcome, and it's because of that kindness that she instinctively wants to reject it; pull herself away from any gentleness that she's so undeserving of. but with immense willpower, she keeps her hand in place, letting saber wipe the blood from it. the hand is mostly clean now, as if its sins were wiped away.
always, always, she has to be the one that watches and causes the misery and death of others. she can't let this happen to saber. anyone but him.
in a voice quiet enough for only the two of them to hear inside the powder room, she whispers: ]
What should we do now?
[ with the back of her other hand, she brushes the tears that were building up in the corners of her eyes. with a pain in her heart, she remembers what she told siobhan during their first argument. she had called saber headstrong, impulsive, and unknowing of fear.
she forgot stubborn.
the warmth of her hand in his is welcome, and it's because of that kindness that she instinctively wants to reject it; pull herself away from any gentleness that she's so undeserving of. but with immense willpower, she keeps her hand in place, letting saber wipe the blood from it. the hand is mostly clean now, as if its sins were wiped away.
always, always, she has to be the one that watches and causes the misery and death of others. she can't let this happen to saber. anyone but him.
in a voice quiet enough for only the two of them to hear inside the powder room, she whispers: ]
What should we do now?
Not a chance, I'm afraid.
[ The smile he gives her is warm, like they're not actively looking down the barrel of their demise. She'd shown such strength over these last three weeks, even though fate seemed to have a penchant for dragging her wherever it saw fit. But they'd been together through it all (even when she didn't want to be), and gone through so much, and he's watched her come into her own as a Master.
But it doesn't matter here. What matters is what comes next.
Richard pauses, before reaching up with his other hand to wipe away a stray tear running down Ayaka's cheek. His smile dims, and his tone gets more serious. ]
Do you think you can do this?
[ The smile he gives her is warm, like they're not actively looking down the barrel of their demise. She'd shown such strength over these last three weeks, even though fate seemed to have a penchant for dragging her wherever it saw fit. But they'd been together through it all (even when she didn't want to be), and gone through so much, and he's watched her come into her own as a Master.
But it doesn't matter here. What matters is what comes next.
Richard pauses, before reaching up with his other hand to wipe away a stray tear running down Ayaka's cheek. His smile dims, and his tone gets more serious. ]
Do you think you can do this?
[ her eyes lock with his as he asks her if she's ready. the scream is still sitting in her stomach, festering terribly with wave after wave of anxiety threatening to swallow her whole like mud.
and yet, as she looks up to saber and his unwavering faith in her, she realizes that this is not the time for her to curl up and wish to disappear. she can do that after, once they've been caught and tried for their crimes. but for now, she has to be the support that saber needs, because he has never once failed to be the pillar that she has needed this whole time.
placing her hand in his, she gives him a nod. ]
I don't know if I can bring us to victory. [ because this is, at the end of the day, just another battle, right? the stakes are similar to the holy grail war. a battle without swords, perhaps, but the takes are the same. ] But we're a team, right? So if you're going to fight, then I'll be fighting with you until the end.
and yet, as she looks up to saber and his unwavering faith in her, she realizes that this is not the time for her to curl up and wish to disappear. she can do that after, once they've been caught and tried for their crimes. but for now, she has to be the support that saber needs, because he has never once failed to be the pillar that she has needed this whole time.
placing her hand in his, she gives him a nod. ]
I don't know if I can bring us to victory. [ because this is, at the end of the day, just another battle, right? the stakes are similar to the holy grail war. a battle without swords, perhaps, but the takes are the same. ] But we're a team, right? So if you're going to fight, then I'll be fighting with you until the end.
[ The door to the Primrose suite closes behind them with a quiet click, and almost immediately Richard lets out a long sigh. That was... not how he was expecting things to go in the slightest. He can only stare blankly for a second while he just kind of. Resets. ]
[ as richard sighs, ayaka finally lets whatever bravado was holding her up crumble like a sand castle. like a puppet with its strings cut, she buries her face in her hands, and simply starts sobbing. ]
[ saber's apologizing? what for? it's her fault for dragging him into this. if she had done the right thing and simply confessed, if she hadn't done what she did to blade... if she hadn't followed along with andrew when she knew that the other girl was wrong...
so many sins, all stacked on top of her like weights. siobhan's blood is on her hands, and now so is siffrin's. how many more people's lives is she going to take?
her words fail her as she continues to sob, but she replies to him with a shake of her head. "it's not your fault" she wants to say, "it's mine." ]
so many sins, all stacked on top of her like weights. siobhan's blood is on her hands, and now so is siffrin's. how many more people's lives is she going to take?
her words fail her as she continues to sob, but she replies to him with a shake of her head. "it's not your fault" she wants to say, "it's mine." ]
[ He makes a concerned face, like he knows what she's trying to say, but he doesn't say anything about it. What else can he do? He managed to protect her, but in doing so put someone else at fault for something they didn't do. The price was worth paying it, he knows that, but for Ayaka...
He gently puts his hand on her shoulder. ]
Do you want to sit down?
[ He thinks he should probably block the door to prevent anyone from his suite to come in (it hits him as ironic, thinking about Shiv trying to block him in), but decides against it. ]
He gently puts his hand on her shoulder. ]
Do you want to sit down?
[ He thinks he should probably block the door to prevent anyone from his suite to come in (it hits him as ironic, thinking about Shiv trying to block him in), but decides against it. ]
[ ayaka's sobs stop soon after she feels richard's hand on her shoulder, slowly reduced down to shuddering breaths. richard's voice feels distant to her ear, muffled by her accumulated anxiety that overwhelms her.
ayaka turns towards him, but her gaze immediately shifts downwards out of guilt. ]
If... you don't mind. [ her ankle fucking hurts, man. ] I... I can wait while you change out of your armor, if you want.
ayaka turns towards him, but her gaze immediately shifts downwards out of guilt. ]
If... you don't mind. [ her ankle fucking hurts, man. ] I... I can wait while you change out of your armor, if you want.
[ He nods, leading her to the sitting room. ]
I don't mind either way. It's probably best if you take the weight off your ankle, anyway.
[ Once she has her pick of the place to sit, he steps out of the room for a moment to go get the medicinal vial from his things, making sure that the spray bottle is better hidden until he can dispose of it. Once he's satisfied, he comes back by Ayaka, handing her the bottle. ]
There should be enough for one more dose, if you need it.
[ It's going to go away in a few days, but that doesn't mean she needs to suffer through it. ]
I don't mind either way. It's probably best if you take the weight off your ankle, anyway.
[ Once she has her pick of the place to sit, he steps out of the room for a moment to go get the medicinal vial from his things, making sure that the spray bottle is better hidden until he can dispose of it. Once he's satisfied, he comes back by Ayaka, handing her the bottle. ]
There should be enough for one more dose, if you need it.
[ It's going to go away in a few days, but that doesn't mean she needs to suffer through it. ]
[ she takes her seat, slumped against the back of it in exhaustion, her head turned towards the ceiling. each time she closes her eyes, she can see flashes of the moment she stabbed her. the horrified look in siobhan's eyes, the sight of the knife buried in her body, and [ ].
...they said that she had been stabbed twice, but ayaka only remembers once. so what's missing from her memory?
from the corner of her eye, she sees richard returning, and she scoots to the side to give him some space to sit down as well, if he so chooses. she takes the bottle, staring at it blankly. ]
Thanks. Though I might have to take it later if we still have to get through today and...tomorrow.
[ when siffrin is executed for a crime they didn't commit. ]
...they said that she had been stabbed twice, but ayaka only remembers once. so what's missing from her memory?
from the corner of her eye, she sees richard returning, and she scoots to the side to give him some space to sit down as well, if he so chooses. she takes the bottle, staring at it blankly. ]
Thanks. Though I might have to take it later if we still have to get through today and...tomorrow.
[ when siffrin is executed for a crime they didn't commit. ]
[ After a few seconds of deliberation, he sits next to her, giving enough space as he can as he watches Ayaka stare at the bottle. ]
Mm, true. At the very least, most people should have their attentions diverted elsewhere for tomorrow, that it might not be as much of an issue.
[ A little harsh, maybe...? He doesn't seem to care, if he notices it. ]
Mm, true. At the very least, most people should have their attentions diverted elsewhere for tomorrow, that it might not be as much of an issue.
[ A little harsh, maybe...? He doesn't seem to care, if he notices it. ]
Saber.
[ even with his armor, she still tries to jab him lightly with her elbow.
in a way he's right. they're all so focused with the fact that they voted for an innocent party, that maybe if she does a good enough job at hiding her limp, it'll be fine. though the last thing that she really wants to do is aggravate the injury to the point that it's impossible to disguise, so maybe it's better if she lays low for now.
besides, it's not like she has any energy for anything at the moment. ]
I turned Blade into a frog. [ she scoffs, not at the thought of blade as a frog, but at her own foolishness. ] What a stupid way to panic. I'm sorry about that.
[ even with his armor, she still tries to jab him lightly with her elbow.
in a way he's right. they're all so focused with the fact that they voted for an innocent party, that maybe if she does a good enough job at hiding her limp, it'll be fine. though the last thing that she really wants to do is aggravate the injury to the point that it's impossible to disguise, so maybe it's better if she lays low for now.
besides, it's not like she has any energy for anything at the moment. ]
I turned Blade into a frog. [ she scoffs, not at the thought of blade as a frog, but at her own foolishness. ] What a stupid way to panic. I'm sorry about that.
Edited 2025-03-24 12:20 (UTC)
[ He flashes her a somewhat apologetic smile, letting her elbow him as much as she needs. ]
I was wondering if that was you. [ As far as he knew she hadn't used hers up until that point, but he can't be informed about everything at this point. He suddenly realizes how much he's been missing Loxley and the others these last 36 hours. ]
It was a good strategy, panic or not – at the very least, it served as a valuable way to waste the valuable time that was left.
[ And with Andrew's accusation... somehow things seemed to fall in place after that. ]
There's nothing to apologize for. You did good, Ayaka. [ As much as he wishes she didn't have to. ]
I was wondering if that was you. [ As far as he knew she hadn't used hers up until that point, but he can't be informed about everything at this point. He suddenly realizes how much he's been missing Loxley and the others these last 36 hours. ]
It was a good strategy, panic or not – at the very least, it served as a valuable way to waste the valuable time that was left.
[ And with Andrew's accusation... somehow things seemed to fall in place after that. ]
There's nothing to apologize for. You did good, Ayaka. [ As much as he wishes she didn't have to. ]
Edited 2025-03-25 01:09 (UTC)
[ she wants to say that she doesn't feel like she did any good, but that fact is already more than obvious in the way that she had just been openly sobbing no more than 10 minutes ago.
she leans her head against the backrest of the sofa, staring up at the ceiling and closing her eyes. upon immediately seeing the same fast forwarded scene that's been practically burned into the backs of her eyelids, she opens them, and turns towards saber. ]
...
[ siobhan called him an attack dog. chara called him a weapon. ayaka doesn't want to see him as either, but considering that saber has never refuted either statement, she wonders just how he feels about it. she called herself his master, but... is she actually fit to do this? ]
Saber... [ she's not naive. but her desire to escape from those agonizing moments is blocking her memory. she has seen his memories and she knows what he was capable of. if saber had come before everyone else had woken up, then... ] Was I the one that killed Siobhan?
[ regardless of the answer, the result remains the same. siobhan is dead, and she's responsible for it, one way or another. whether it's by landing the killing blow or by forcing saber to be in the position of having to take her out of her misery. ]
she leans her head against the backrest of the sofa, staring up at the ceiling and closing her eyes. upon immediately seeing the same fast forwarded scene that's been practically burned into the backs of her eyelids, she opens them, and turns towards saber. ]
...
[ siobhan called him an attack dog. chara called him a weapon. ayaka doesn't want to see him as either, but considering that saber has never refuted either statement, she wonders just how he feels about it. she called herself his master, but... is she actually fit to do this? ]
Saber... [ she's not naive. but her desire to escape from those agonizing moments is blocking her memory. she has seen his memories and she knows what he was capable of. if saber had come before everyone else had woken up, then... ] Was I the one that killed Siobhan?
[ regardless of the answer, the result remains the same. siobhan is dead, and she's responsible for it, one way or another. whether it's by landing the killing blow or by forcing saber to be in the position of having to take her out of her misery. ]
[ As Ayaka leans back and they fall into a quiet, Richard takes it as his cue to start removing pieces of his armor, placing the discarded pieces on a nearby chair. Should he even be here? Should he not have fallen on the sword, as was his plan should even the slightest bit of doubt went her way? Perhaps he should just be glad nothing actually went up her way, but he can't deny that it still feels strange, having expected it to go down a completely different way.
When she finally asks him, he stops what he's doing, and looks back at her. It doesn't take a single amount of deliberation for a definitive answer: ]
No.
[ It's short, and confident enough to try and ensure that there's no room for doubt. ] The strike in the chest was not your doing.
When she finally asks him, he stops what he's doing, and looks back at her. It doesn't take a single amount of deliberation for a definitive answer: ]
No.
[ It's short, and confident enough to try and ensure that there's no room for doubt. ] The strike in the chest was not your doing.
....
[ ayaka freezes at the answer. even though she had logically expected it, it doesn't make the reality of it any easier. with the confirmation, the memories that were dammed are free to flow. she remembers seeing richard arrive, lightning crackling at his feet, picking up the knife and bringing it down into siobhan's chest in a fluid motion.
suddenly, it feels hard to breathe again, as the memory washes over her again like poison. in the darkness, it had been difficult to see siobhan's corpse and, in the trial, ayaka had made an effort to ignore siobhan's corpse, because she's not sure she would have been able to keep it together if she had gotten close to it. ]
[ ayaka freezes at the answer. even though she had logically expected it, it doesn't make the reality of it any easier. with the confirmation, the memories that were dammed are free to flow. she remembers seeing richard arrive, lightning crackling at his feet, picking up the knife and bringing it down into siobhan's chest in a fluid motion.
suddenly, it feels hard to breathe again, as the memory washes over her again like poison. in the darkness, it had been difficult to see siobhan's corpse and, in the trial, ayaka had made an effort to ignore siobhan's corpse, because she's not sure she would have been able to keep it together if she had gotten close to it. ]
[ but instead of screaming or letting her tears fall again, ayaka closes her eyes, straightens her back, and draws in a shaky breath to calm herself down.
instead of the usual scene that's been playing on loop of siobhan dying, this time, she hears the words of that strange man that followed richard around-- the words she heard before she saw the field of beheaded corpses, painting the ground a deep, deep red.
'When it's all said and done, I ask you to please accept him as he is. It means nothing if I, someone who lived his time, do it. It must be you, someone who lived a different time.'
without thinking, ayaka leans forward, to grab his hand with both of hers. as if he would disappear into thin air if she let him go. ]
Saber.
[ her voice trembles. he has covered his hands in blood for her sake, even though she's so undeserving of it. ]
I'm sorry. [ she's undeserving of this. in her heart, she knows that she should have been tried tonight. but here she is now, with her and saber both safe for now. ] And thank you.
instead of the usual scene that's been playing on loop of siobhan dying, this time, she hears the words of that strange man that followed richard around-- the words she heard before she saw the field of beheaded corpses, painting the ground a deep, deep red.
'When it's all said and done, I ask you to please accept him as he is. It means nothing if I, someone who lived his time, do it. It must be you, someone who lived a different time.'
without thinking, ayaka leans forward, to grab his hand with both of hers. as if he would disappear into thin air if she let him go. ]
Saber.
[ her voice trembles. he has covered his hands in blood for her sake, even though she's so undeserving of it. ]
I'm sorry. [ she's undeserving of this. in her heart, she knows that she should have been tried tonight. but here she is now, with her and saber both safe for now. ] And thank you.
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[ In all honesty, Richard half-expected her to yell at him, like she's been doing all the way up until now. And to be fair, isn't that what the right reaction to this is? She'd been mad at him pulling other stupid stunts to try and protect her, is this fundamentally no different?
So when she takes his hand, he tenses slightly, surprise clearly painted on his face. ]
Ayaka...?
[ He's not sure what to say, exactly. It was so much easier to try and play a lot of it off like he was just being needlessly agggressive, and trying his best to distract from the point, but this...
Even if it wasn't the outcome he was planning for or expecting, it still resulted in her safety. And wasn't that what really mattered to him, deep down? With the amount of blood that's on Richard the Lionheart's hands, adding two people to that count doesn't even register as a drop in the bucket to him. For her, he'd bear the responsibility for it all over again. As many times as this place traps them in the loop, he'd do it again and again.
After all, if Ish won't honor the wish to protect her here, then he still has work to do, right? ]
There's nothing to apologize for. [ a broken record, but it bears repeating. ] I wasn't about to let her have the last laugh.
[ If anything, Siobhan Roy should be glad she only went out with a knife to the chest. ]
So when she takes his hand, he tenses slightly, surprise clearly painted on his face. ]
Ayaka...?
[ He's not sure what to say, exactly. It was so much easier to try and play a lot of it off like he was just being needlessly agggressive, and trying his best to distract from the point, but this...
Even if it wasn't the outcome he was planning for or expecting, it still resulted in her safety. And wasn't that what really mattered to him, deep down? With the amount of blood that's on Richard the Lionheart's hands, adding two people to that count doesn't even register as a drop in the bucket to him. For her, he'd bear the responsibility for it all over again. As many times as this place traps them in the loop, he'd do it again and again.
After all, if Ish won't honor the wish to protect her here, then he still has work to do, right? ]
There's nothing to apologize for. [ a broken record, but it bears repeating. ] I wasn't about to let her have the last laugh.
[ If anything, Siobhan Roy should be glad she only went out with a knife to the chest. ]
I know.
[ despite the initial terror of finding herself awake while saber wasn't, a small part of her hadn't given up hope that somehow, he would help her. and help her she did...at the cost of two lives. that will weigh on her shoulders forever, along with the kind college student that had given ayaka their body, the mage couple that ripped each other apart, and god knows how many others.
hwylryn had asked her if she valued one life above another when asked about andrew and siffrin. in that moment, she had said that she couldn't. but with saber next to him, responsible for a crime that he committed to save her life, she can't help but feel that her answer would have changed if the person in question had been him. ]
I'm mad that you set the library on fire and put everyone else in danger. That was so stupid of you that I can't even begin to describe it.
[ she huffs out a sigh through her nose, looking down at their hands. ]
But I'm going to help you carry the weight of Siffrin and Siobhan's deaths. I don't care if you tell me that it's nothing for you. I'm... not taking no for an answer, so don't even try.
[ the same way that saber didn't give up on her earlier, she won't let him carry everything on his own. ]
[ despite the initial terror of finding herself awake while saber wasn't, a small part of her hadn't given up hope that somehow, he would help her. and help her she did...at the cost of two lives. that will weigh on her shoulders forever, along with the kind college student that had given ayaka their body, the mage couple that ripped each other apart, and god knows how many others.
hwylryn had asked her if she valued one life above another when asked about andrew and siffrin. in that moment, she had said that she couldn't. but with saber next to him, responsible for a crime that he committed to save her life, she can't help but feel that her answer would have changed if the person in question had been him. ]
I'm mad that you set the library on fire and put everyone else in danger. That was so stupid of you that I can't even begin to describe it.
[ she huffs out a sigh through her nose, looking down at their hands. ]
But I'm going to help you carry the weight of Siffrin and Siobhan's deaths. I don't care if you tell me that it's nothing for you. I'm... not taking no for an answer, so don't even try.
[ the same way that saber didn't give up on her earlier, she won't let him carry everything on his own. ]
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